bitch.

i am sitting next to a child...it's not a very pleasant looking child...in fact, even though it belongs to someone in whose veins runs the same type of blood as in mine (big deal)...i wouldn't mind if it died...this child...it talks too loud...it talks too much (yes i see the irony in that statement) to be quite...QUITE honest...i would not shed a single tear if this dear...departed.

"amma...amma...amma...AMMA..AMMA...AMMMA...AMMMAAA..AAMMMAAAA....?"

"merr gayy hai amma tumhari!!!! i whispered gently to it...

(it's crying in the background...but for some other reason...)

it always cries...it's a defected child i think...it talks with a strange accent...it is...four years old...i think it should now die. there's nothing more to see on this planet. i whispered to the child that its mother had died and it stared at me...it stared because i usually don't talk to it...at all...i just either pass it by, ignoring it completely or yell at it, suddenly and (to its mind) for no reason.
it started repeating its mantra again...amma amma amma amma...it's frustrating...the voice...it's like a cistrum (metallic "musical" instrument sort of like the can they use to wake you up in the middle of the night during ramzan) i don't hit children (maybe aknee to the face now and then but not regularly)...i destroy them mentally...and i derive a lot of pleasure from it...unless...the child looks like something i could stand to be around and not a snotty little brat...with loud goddamn vocal chords...loud...i hate loud ugly children...plus this bastard isn't very compliant...but since nearly all living creatures fear me...(i look like a wraith) i can usually get by with these...creatures...of satan...if it were mine...i would've killed it. or at least pulled its tongue out...or sew the lips shut...it's still crying in the background...for a third or fourth reason since the last one i gave it...
i find it hard to eat in the company of children...i always fear that i would throw up if i look at a child whilst eating...they are sick disgusting creatures...all children should die...except the non-ugly ones...i can't stress this point enough...a race of beautiful people...and wars would come to a sudden end...nobody would want to risk their pretty faces in a war...pretty people are more or less just cunts who wouldn't take a punch to the face...try it on edward norton in real life...or brad pitt...see if they don't start crying or piss their pants...so much for that. i was, three minutes ago...very happy about something...now i want to chew spleens. i'm probably the fastest fish eater i have ever met...spines don't stop me...nothing does...i can eat at least twice as fast as you or your father's mother. i am stuck in a house full of crying children...pregnant women...and some who just got done with their bit. it's enough to drive the insane, crazy.
a race of perfect people...generally, doctor hitler is blamed for coming up with this...philosophy haha...but in fact it originated in america...eugenics i mean...i was reading this book by michael crichton (state of fear) and in the end of that book there was a kind of author's note thing...he tells you all about how at one point in time the american elite decided that it was time to stop the undesirables from reproducing and mucking up the gene pool...the list of undesirables included handicapped people...slightly nuts people (such as me) blacks...and jews...leave us not forget jews...everyone wants them dead. so americans came up with ethnic cleansing...they would neutralise...(castrate if you will) the undesirables...no more filthy babies...no more problems...such as crime and illetracy...since it was america, it had the support of everybody...including h.g. wells...nobody gives a shit about what he wants though...but then...indeed it was the germans who took it a step further...they built these...houses where undesirables would be interviewed...and if found completely useless...led to a back room and gassed. an american organization funded the germans...right uptil the start of world war two. nobody knows about it...because nobody talks about it...all we now know is nazis are evil, stone cold bastards who killed jews (which is a bad thing? how?). americans are weird people...they don't seem to know anything...they're nearly as bad as jews. america is just one big jew fest...
sooner or later my eyes are going to close and i'm going to fall on my face. time for bed. you may as well ask what these bits of carrots are doing here...i just don't like carrots...feck them zzz. i wonder if crichton is a jew...

martin pale...sharp as a nail.