toffeeyan goliyan

this one is going to be boring as well...with little or nothing to do with anything...there is no need to read it...or the last three or four...said the idiot to himself.
i don't get it...this asshole always shifts the chair a bit too much to the right...why? what the hell is wrong with this stupid bastard? it's only perfect when it's where i put it...so quit being a bastard and leave the goddamn chair where it is...frustration can only be doubled or tripled when you're extremely itchy for no reason...not bathing could be a good reason but this isn't that sort of itch...this is the itch that makes you feel that if you scratch yourself, you'll bleed...it's driving me nuts. stupid goddamn bedbugs infect my goddamn nest. there's a plague of them here...and they SUCK.
ever get the feeling that somebody's looking at you and they don't mean well? constantly? excellent...when everybody is the enemy...exactly how and what for? you don't know...you just know they're out to get you...who is out to get you? it doesn't matter...everybody...
your hair looks nice...
liar...i will end you.
you're very talented...
LIAR...i will end you.
skans? that's great...
LIAR...I WILL END YOU.
and it goes on like that...the rain of crap falls like rain of crap...i miss my dog...i never had sex with it but i miss my dog. he was the only living creature i knew of who did not seem to mind my being weird...in fact he kind of enjoyed it...not many dogs get to go around for walks through insane places at ungodly hours or get loads of nothing...shit...i never fed my dog...my dog is dead...how goddamn funny is that? in my defense...he was anorexic...they sent his wife/mother away which let to the on-set of depression...no need to bark...no need to feed...no need to run around pissing on everything...just lie there...find a good garbage dump and die on it...you treat me like garbage, i guess it only makes sense to go die on a heap of it and feel like, yeah...so this is where i belong...in the dump. sneezing coughing blood and mucus. i miss my dog the most in autumn, mainly because there's a lot of leaves on the ground and when there's a slight breeze it seems like the son of a bitch is running around in the leaves...once or twice i actually thought i saw him...but that's probably because i'm more or less nuts. itchy bastard. he once got stuck in his wife/mother whilst doing her...poor guy...must've been painful...somehow managed to turn himself the other way and tried to run off...yelping like crazy...at the time i thought he must've sat on some glue and got his ass stuck to her...a theory which i later had to revise as i entered the age of information...i think i was the latest to enter that age...ignorance was bliss...when you have no idea what the hell you're doing...it's great...nobody else does it at least in your mind...don't mind. i can hear some sort of noise...like a high pitched...tune of sorts...somewhere...goddamnit...i forgot i had loads of death metal for this sort of situation...siegreicher marsch...sadly...the volume on these head phones is shit. actually seigreicher marsch isn't what i need at the moment...i don't feel very victorious...more like pursuit of vikings...hahahahaha...pursuit of vikings...apparently there's a viking out there who's supposed to tell me where to go...or at least that's what t.m. said. black eternal winds by judas iscariot is more like it. this guy sounds like this guy i once knew of...he worked at this pan shop...he used to sound like judas iscariot guy. paindoo haramkhor. sounds like a freakin' goblin. don't deny it bitch, you know i'm right...the volume is depressing...blasphemy made flesh...again...the volume sucks. screw it all...go back to sabbath...finished with my woman cause she couldn't help me with my mind...people think i'm insane coz i'm frowning all the time...blah blooh...excellent...funny...but excellent. i think the first song i liked was the wizard...probably because at the time i had never...never heard a song about anything so far away from the normal reality...songs always used to be about...killing people...drugs...love? this was one about a wizard...hahahaha...nobody writes songs about wizards anymore...good thing i wrote a lame poem for radagast so i'm safe. at one point in time spinning tops amused me. i should write about tops. i honestly don't know my ass from my face when it comes to music and bands and genres (jenrees) but pana told me the other day about how he nearly freaked out when he saw that some girl on his msn list had a personal message that said, "i have become, comfortably numb." but then he calmed down...assumed she must've heard the scissor sister "cover" (rape) of the song...so he asked her if she knew what song her personal message belonged to...so she says
"lol yeah...kelly clarkson..."
it's at times like this and all times other than this...that i sincerely wish with all my heart that i was born in the mid fifties...anyhoo...pana explained to her...it was a complete waste of time...trying to educate a girl can cause brain aneurisms. one girl once claimed that "all along the watch tower" was originally by hendrix...that's unforgiveable...now i don't know many bands and much about music...but at least...basic education...basics...some day people are going to come up to me and tell me "kashmir" was sung by puff daddy and i'll just kill myself and get it over with.
man i don't get it...how did they come up with "achilles last stand" and will there ever come a time...when it won't be as amazing as it is? led zeppelin will last forever...if i ever have a house of my own...if i am ever able to afford to live happily ever after...because happiness can only be bought around here...i will make sure that i don't get mtv...or any other channel that sells contemporary black bullshit as music...blues and jazz were amazing...thankyou very much black people...everything was great...but when you decided to wear oversized football shirt-things and gold...and chant about how nice it is to be rich...i left and never came back...i was not missed...i didn't care. somebody told me that sabbath claims to be a rock band. that's nice. haha. i have minimal knowledge about music but i can't help ranting about it...it's the only nice thing around...music...what the hell am i talking about??? music is a disease...look into my eyes, you'll see who i am. my name is lucifer please take my hand. i'm going to go eat A LOT of xanax now...because supplies are down and there's nothing "better" around...SHUT UP BITCH SHUT UP BEFORE I LOSE MY MIND AND TAKE YOUR LIFE. frustration and itching...add a mother and you have a recipe for insanity.